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Saturday, July 4, 2009, 3:21 PM
All over the place
I should be attending my english class today and as per normal i am being lazy. How am i going to get a B4 if i keep missing lessons. I did not have any encouragement to push me forward. Yet i know that i need to pass this re-examination. It's my only and last chance to prove my worthiness. See.. I have a reason to be motivated because the end result is to be able to achieve my dream. On the other hand, I already signed up with the gym. I really need to lose some weight for the upcoming trip. If some unforeseen circumstances happens, then i should be doing this for the men or for hari raya sake. I know i'm not being positive. Like i mentioned, i'm afraid of getting my hopes to high. My colleagues advised me not to think much about it. I should just go with the flow but i know myself.. I always have the habit of thinking that God wants to make my life miserable & he definitely will. I know it's wrong for me to have that thoughts. Sometimes.. I just don't know why i have such negativity clouding my mind. I am wallowing in self-pity as i'm typing this.