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Wednesday, June 24, 2009, 9:46 PM

Mission:Possible

You saw it right!
I'm back with a mission!
Hellloooooooooooo!
It's been a long time & today shall mark the day i "re-open" my blog.
I had been reading endless people posting and i'm awed & yet envy them. Their templates speak of who they are. Colourful, lively & artistic. I did not have a creative brain therefore i cant churn out any creative juice. This blog will show who i am - the real me.

It took me a freaaking 30mins to retrace back my password on this specific blog name. I like the url; "flower-in-the-desert.blogspot.com"
If u have a vivid mind.. You are able to imagine that a flower in a desert will definitely withered. The searing heat will definitely evaporate the water from the roots. It will then left to die alone..
Unless its a cactus but is a cactus a flower? I have no idea. Please do ur own googling :D
"That Flower" represents me.. I'm alone, I'm giving up yet hopeful that the dark clouds will come by and drench on me.
I know im contradicting myself but howells. That's just me. Too much thinking & too much daydreaming. I need some drama in my life man. Life has been slo'mo. I have only 1 friend & her name is Nazirah. I have 2 colleagues whom i close with. I love these 3 people but i always wonder do they love me? Do they enjoy my company? My Bestie die long ago then she decided to reircanate herself-become herself again 0_0. Waste my effing time trying to re-bury everything. She's gone now. I can live without her. Oh! I tried & tested twice :)
So.. Family? I only wanna talk about nice & happy things that we share & went through.
I love my family & as always they are such a pain in my armpit. Why? You need to wait for that ranting which i hope happens once in a full moon. Heh!

The ultimate one..Boyfriend? Can i slap ur face? I have none ;(
I believe Allah has better planning for me instead of wasting my life making sins such as having sex n more sex. A prude, you say? Everyone is entitled to have their own views.
I rather slosh myself with Long island tea, cranberry vodka, mojitos n a strawberry margarita pls but pre-marital sex is still a NO-NO to me. I believe that a girl should save "that" on her wedding night with the one & only beloved man.
Yup i'm a virgin & proud of it!

How do i end this? Oh! As i was saying as in paragraph 1, i kept typing the wrong username & url. Lol! I can't believe i have alot of blog. I shall quote three of em, "whispering-secret, "afeelingofasoulinlurve" & "faraway-thoughts". Btw faraway-thoughts came from more-than-words which i created when i was 18 n in ITE Simei. It gained alot of readers from all over the school because every computer have my url. So yup im that famous. I stopped blogging after 2 years later as i was busy concentrated on building my "career". I tried keeping a blog but i wasnt consistent in updating. Eveyrtime i logged in blogger, i had nothing to type about eventhough in the day, i had something in mind to annouce to the world. It seems that my vocabulary is shrinking & that's why i'm re-taking my 'O' lvl. I need to get that B3 babeh!

As u can see.. i am missing blogging & i'm here to stay forever insyallah.
I wanna browse through blogskin(is it still alive?) for some quirky templates & i shall do an adaption from there. I can't wait to go through an exhaustive 6hrs of designing,editing & re-posting templates over&over again ;P