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Wednesday, March 31, 2010, 2:32 PM
Mother starts her job tomorrow. It will be from 7am-3pm. She's working for my cousin-in-law's food stall. I already miss my Mommy. I just want to cry thinking that she wouldn't be able to cook for us, nag at us for being messy and simply her TLC.
I hate myself for letting her work. If i did not continue schooling, i would able to support her as usual. Why am i so selfish?! She would be here massaging away my knots and sorrows. For God damn sake! Why am i depending on her?! I'm a grown-up! I should be independent! I must do the washing, cooking and guiding my younger Sibs. I'm the eldest. Can't I remember when I was 10, the world went through the great financial crisis. My Mother returned to workforce and that was worse because she worked the night shift and we practically grew up w/o her. Why we were able to survive? We were small then not knowing about our surrounding, much about the world affairs.
I'm embarrassed with the situation right now. I can only do what i can do. Study well and really earn my "lost" money.